In five years...

In five years, where do I see myself?? I will be extremely successful, and by this I mean financially and in happiness. I see myself married and because divorce is not an option, it will be the to the man of my dreams. Knowing me, I will probably have a kid. In five years I'll be almost 30 so, that's a good time for me. I will have graduated law school and living in a house on lots of land. I will be working part time as a child advocate and with my other time I'll be writing children's books. If not that, then I will have opened up a restaurant and bar. Quite on the opposite sides of the spectrum but, they both sound like fun :) In five years, I plan on still being a smart ass and I will still have a sense of humor. ( i hope i never grow out of those qualities). Within those five years, I would have traveled to Japan, which is the only place outside this country, besides Mexico, I want to go. Hanging with my family will be my number one priority, my second one, is to never have to wake up too early. In five years I will still be able to appreciate a cold beer and some hot wings. I will still love champagne, fine wines and five course meals. In five years I plan to be well on my way to living the life I want to live.

Now, all that's left to do is wait and see if I am right :)

My Senior Good Bye to F.S.R.

I have two more blogs to write, but I can't think of a topic to write for the first of the two, but I do know what I want to write for the last one, so I'm writing them out of order.

We just finished up our last class and also just found out our 9-12 page final is due on Tuesday. An extension would have been nice, but I know I would have just used it to procrastinate it even more.
I first would like to start (that sounds a little redundant) by thanking my group members! I really enjoyed getting to know each and every one of you. We really had a great group. We were ALWAYS respectful of one another and we are a mix of opinionated people. We had our hot days, when you couldn't shut us up and the teacher would compliment our discussion, then we had our not so hot days, when we didn't talk about anything. Either way, I enjoyed it all. I wish everyone the bestest of luck with what ever their life holds, after the semester. Before that, good luck on your finals.

For the people not in my group, I would recognize Treysi and Paige, thanks ladies for always having something intelligent to say! I truly respect your opinions and know that you two will go far in whatever you do. Treysi, you could read my mind, any time i looked over at you, there were no need for words ;) I'm sure I'll be reading your opinions from the bench of the Supreme Court one day. Shannon, Nicole and Jacklyn, thanks for always having a smile on your face. Lighten up the mood a little in the class and we know we needed it. I am glad I met you girls. And last but not least, the teacher, thanks for teaching me how to freely speak responsibly. I have learned a lot about my first amendment rights and had many issues brought to my attention. It is something I will always be aware of.

For everyone else, thank you too! It would not have been a successful class or actually much of a class without you all. Good luck guys!

Classroom Culture

This last Thursday class, when we were looking at porn and children's books :) was filled with tense filled situations, of student on student confrontations. My response to it, constructive. When I hear some people talk I am amazed at their ignorance and lack of argumentation skills (and yes there is a correct way to argue) and I wish everyone can just see what i see and think what i think, but then i hear someone say some thing brilliant, that never even crossed my mind, and once again i am thankful for not everyone thinking like me.
I think the teacher does an excellent job at allowing us to work it out among ourselves. We are adults (whether we like it or not) and there is not better time to practice our free speech and practice it responsibly, than in class with our peers when things get a little heated. What we do need a little work on, is the respectful aspect of it and the understanding their are different perspectives i might not agree with, aspect of it. And that is where we can help each other.
I like when things get heated, and when people are opinionated, it makes for great debates! But that doesn't mean we need to fight each other, save that for our 6:00 break!!
Chill and just listen to what people have to say, you might learn something.
Looking forward to tonights class ;)

My boyfriend, my best friend

So I am going to get cheesy on you all and give a shout out to my man! First let me start off by saying, I have had some major drama in my life regarding boyfriends. I am not talking shit about them, they were great people, at the same time, they had a lot of emotions they still needed to figure out and as i came to learn, so did I. After having these real crazy and dramatic relationships I realized the one common denominator, ME. Ouch! That hit home, when I finally looked at myself and what I was attracting and how I was contributing to a not so healthy relationship. I did a lot of work on myself and tried to make myself who i wanted to be. This is when I met Kevin. Although I was immediately attracted to him and we completely hit it off, it was not all roses and kisses. We were two very different people. Almost the whole first year we were together was figuring out if this would even work. One element we did have since day one, was our ability to communicate. I know this is cliche, but communication really is the key! We have finally met on common grounds and now we can't get enough of each other. I have never been so happy with someone. He is truly my best friend. This is the first relationship when we have been able to eliminate all that high school, immature, and hurtful habits. Now we aren't perfect, but I know we can overcome what ever comes our way.
I don't think Kevin has realized just how thankful i am for him (even though I try and express it). He doesn't know what i have been through, to the extent that i know and to be able to just be with someone and be confident and secure with the relationship is wonderful. Kevin is freakin hilarious (that is what won my heart) and he is kind and not too proud to show me how he feels. I have realized the only time I can really breath is when I am touching him or he is around me. We share this mutual feeling of love for one another and I am so thankful he is in my life.

Winding down to the end of the semester and I can feel that I am fighting off a break down! I am usually very chill. Even though things are going crazy inside my head, I try to maintain a calm composure on the outside. I read this tip in a magazine one time, it basically said, fake it til you make it (and no i am not talking about orgasms). Fake that you are calm and relaxed and everything is under control, even if they are not. It will help you better to deal with LIFE!
So anyways, back to me and my crazy end of the semester. So I am graduating this semester YAY, so this means 20 units including Capstone!! I haven't had a problem all semester managing my time, although i am feeling the pain as the semester draws closer to an end. I can't even list the many things I have due within the 3 weeks of school. School work is getting super hectic and I am trying to keep my cool and just take it day by day. So to everyone finishing up the semester, hang in there! We are almost done!

Liberty v. Order

For my Intro to Creative Writing class we had to write a social action poem. When I wrote this, it was around the time when the class had the discussion of Liberty vs. Order. So that was my social action poem topic. Feel free to comment, the poem is still in the revision stages, so your comments would actually be helpful. Thanks for taking the time to read it!

Free as a Caged Bird

The burning star above our heads is beating down upon us,

it challenges our will to practice our rights, the

sweet smell of sweat on our body and souls, our sore throats, and

tears represents our dissent. We gather

on the black gravel road, thousands are there, our voice is loud.

Our voices are free and powerful like hurricane winds,

we slip through the government’s hands,

we march like a sea, but separate for no one.

Then, I feel a baton jab my left side and a shove from my right,

I look up and for a moment I am in the shadow of the policemen,

Atop horses, bikes, with steel toe boots, they wear

the uniform of government.

They have just disrupted a peaceful bee hive.

They are peppered among the crowds,

They are hungry hawks and we are little mice.

Waiting for us to be separated from our herd.

They fear us like the night and we fear them right back.

We are face down and hog tied on the streets, I feel the hot gravel sticking into my cheek

The sun shows us no mercy.

Our voice is broken from the crush of the tidal wave.

We are as free as a caged bird,

inside the walls of the government.

Random Free Write

I am sitting at my desk in my room. I am sitting on the edge of my chair and rocked forward because it helps me to sit up straight, which I don't always tend do. My housemates call my room my "cave" because I stay in here quite a bit throughout the week doing my homework. I have 20 units this semester along with Capstone, so school keeps me pretty busy. I am very fortunate to have my parents financial support, which allows me the extra time to focus on school instead of getting a job. But that also means, no excuses when it comes to grade time :) I don't mind getting help from my parents. I know some people don't have this option, or wouldn't take it if they did. I accept the helping hand. I figure just because someone opens the door for me, doesn't mean I won't walk through it :) I know it is important to always remember to be thankful when it happens, but not to except it.
Still sitting at my desk, I realize what a mess it is! Covered with post-its, papers, my phone, books, pictures, a bowl from lunch, couple glasses, a hammer, candles, pens, elephants (my favorite animal) and tons of other stuff that probably should not be on my desk. I am not the cleanest person alive, but I know where everything is or if it has been moved. I have a couple hours before class and I still need to take a shower and pack. I am heading home after class. I only live an hour and a half from here so I go home quite a bit. That is where my family, friends and boyfriend are. Probably going to move back there after I graduate this May.
As I am typing this blog it feels good to just be able to type whatever, but then I realize that other people are going to read this and I should try and capture their attention, so oh well, maybe next time!! Have a good day guys!